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Monday, March 2, 2009
Having two children seems to have increased my mommy guilt exponentially. Some days, it feels like there's simply not enough of me to go around. Mostly, though, I just remember how Ella seemed to receive so much more constant attention when she was small. I, of course, recognize that this is just the reality of two. Both kids get plenty of love, affection, and attention, but mommy guilt is so unreasonable. When mommy guilt assails me, I am so grateful for wonderful family and friends, as well as my faith, that always help me put life into perspective.
I help to lead the Young Women's program at church (for 12 to 17 year-olds), which includes teaching Sunday lessons. This year, we've really been focusing on our divine nature and divine roles as women. While these lessons are valuable for the young women, they have meant so much to me. We've discussed finding joy today, the importance of our roles as homemakers (and how all family members contribute), and making decisions now that will bring future happiness. All of these topics feel so timely for me and have truly helped to keep perspective and enjoy today. I am so grateful for this!
Tim looked at me the other night after Ella did something especially adorable and he was was so tickled by her. We shared one of those, "Don't you just love being a parent?" moments. I then proceeded to write 3 pages in my journal describing all of the adorable things I love that my children do right now. It was incredible detailing all of the ways they delight me. My life is certainly not glamarous, but it is filled with such sweetness and light.